What should I say about myself? What should I do to this "stranger" whom has been within me, with me, talking to me, pushing me to this or that direction?
I want above all a reconstruction of my life. Why do I want it I don't know. Reconstruction for what purpose? Isn't it just another tyrannical move of my desire for greater material success?
Should I be bothered about, for example, my own morality? What can philosophers do about their own morality? Analyse it? Or to use analysis as a means to rebel against their deeper miscomfort about their life situations?
- The Pretension of Philosophy: You analyse as if you are above things and shallow feelings, as if you are above tradition, and dominant social views of ethics. You are telling yourself that this feeling sorry itself is only a product of particular historical condition. You try to get away from the uneasiness of your poor performance in social ethics and values. Through philosophy, your own weakness in character has become something else. - There are social explanations, psychological explanations, capitalist ideologies, etc. They can be anything but YOUR OWN PROBLEM.
Philosophical analysis becomes a means to evade responsibility. It enables you to escape from your feeling. - But now, what am I doing? Analysis of philosophical analysis? Am I just getting further and further away from the truth of my personality? - What is philosophy to me? Something worse than Christianity.